A New Year, A Better ME.

2010 is just less than 23 hrs away and I don't know what's been happening lately but there's so many things that have been running through my mind. It's so hard for me to even make this post because all these thoughts are scattered throughout my head and I can't seem to figure out what's going on. As I think of one thought, another zips right passed me and catches my attention. It's difficult to concentrate, but hopefully this new year will be a new palette for me. I'm going to push myself to my fullest potential and not hold back anymore.

This past year, I've been lazy and just procrastinated. For myself, it's very disappointing because I know that I'm better than this. Actually seeing the potential of my friends and others, is giving me the push, to exceed in what I want to do. Nothing is going to hold me back because I know someone is going to be behind me every step of the way. We live our life, the way we see it as and it's up to you to make that change for the better. I guess it took me some time to actually realize, we got to make the best of what we have; and right now we have the time. Time is too precious to waste. Yeah, it may sound corny but it's true. There are somethings in this world that we don't want to happen and we take it for granted. I know that everyone doesn't do it intentionally, but why even think like that. Things happen for a reason, and it's for the better.

This past year has been an amazing experience. There were ups, downs, some disappointments, and some achievements. It just brought the better of me out more and hopefully 2010 can do the same (maybe even more? haha). This is gon be big, BIG things 10. It's a new year, a new better ME.

-meeerk

Merry Christmas & Happy Holidays

I just want to greet everyone a Merry Christmas and happy holidays. Hope everyone is enjoying their time off and the time with their loved ones. Take that "x" out and put Christ back in your life. Merry CHRISTmas and God bless.

This holiday feels weird, but I guess things happen for a reason. Enjoy the moments that happen. Live. Love. Give.

-meeerk

"If there is no struggle, there is no progress."

So I know I said that I was going to continue my last post the next day but it has been a little more than a couple of days. I think... LOL I have no idea. I been losing track of my days, because everyday has almost been similar. It's wake up > work > chill > work > practice > sleep. That's basically it, and it's way to easy to lose track.

But anyways, I've been so occupied with my priorities and now I feel like I maybe second guessing myself. All I know is that I want to get done what I have set for me and I'm going to try my best to pull through. Knowing that New Years is just around the bend, I want to make a resolution that I'll actually do throughout the year. I had one resolution that went through for the majority of the year, I don't know why I stopped. Thinking about it, I'm kinda disappointed in myself for not being able to pull through. I know that I'm the type of person to finish and complete things. I'm making 2010 BIG things for me. I'm really going to try my best in everything I do next year because I want to improve myself, not just in the activities that I do but as a person.

Recently, I've been sitting back and watching things pass me by to quickly. I know that there are so many opportunities for me to just grab and hold on but I've been procrastinating and being lazy. Haha I think I should call it "Motivation 2010". Something has come out from this upcoming year, and I'm going to try my best because I hate the fact that I'm that person watching people chase for their dreams instead on being the person chasing their dreams. When life hits, it hits HARD. I had a pretty big reality check, and it came from some many things. Like friends, families, work, and just my social life. Actually knowing what a person is capable of doing, it can change one's perspective of life. When you hit that fork in the road, it's either you become a follower or a leader. There's this quote that I saw but I forgot who said it and I do apologize for not remembering the name but it said "If there is no struggle, there is no progress." I find that very true, because I know that nothing in life comes easy. Hard work and determination is major in being successful. I think I'll end it there now, it's getting pretty late.

What I just put down right now is probably not even 1/16th of what is going on in my head. Another day, another lesson, another day to better one's self. Don't take it for granted because the opportunity is there, so why let pass you? Imma sign off now. G'night world.

-meeerk

It's been a while.

So it's almost been 2 months since my last post. I've been busy and lazy to post something new. I always procrastinate about posting something new because something always seems to come up. There's been a lot been going through my mind and its hard for me to deal with it since we're in the busiest and the most hectic month of the year. There's too happening all at once. Hopefully I'll be able to continue and explain later. It'll just be hard since I'm making this post via blackberry. So I'll be back soon, if not happy holidays and happy new year.

-meeerk