Toronto bound in t-minus....

Haven't been able to blog lately because it has been hella busy couple of weeks and it ain't over yet. I think this month is going to be one of the busiest months for me. I've always been up n' about and I barely get anytime to just to chill n' relax at home. If I do get a day off, I was just chillin' in my room and bumpin' to music all day. I love how I can just listen to music and just let it cleanse my mind. Everytime I get a chance to do this, I just feel so refreshed with new ideas that I just want to go out and do. Haha but there's always time to create and put together.

First off, it was Kidbro's first performance by themselves at Wayne and Ceepa's Wedding Social. Great job to Kidbro, all you guys worked so hard and it paid off. Thanks for committing to the practices and putting in all your effort. It has been more than a year that YTC performed and it was the shit haha. This group is too fun to perform with and to play WCW Revenge for Nintendo 64 haha. Also big ups to Define Movement with their set, it was dope. On another note, the social wasn't even a social. It was BAR!! It felt like the bar too but better with free food. It was intense with DJ Fin-S spinnin', oh and cheap drinks. It was pretty sick and the same night, it was the first snow fall and it was hella heavy. Went to Ken's restaurant with some DS and some other people, it was too funny and the food was so good. Dropped off people, chilled at Jeph's house for a bit then headed home. I got home around 430am and KO'd.

So like what the title says, I'm "Toronto buond in t-minus..." 3 days from now and I'm hella stoked for this competition. It'll be the 4th out-of-town competition for me and the 3rd out-of-town with Sikat. I like the experience of performing in a different city because it has a different feel from performing in front of people that you know. So I'll be leaving with Nesuh and JDR friday morning at 6am -_-" That's really early for me. Meaning I have to wake up around 330 or so to get ready and head to James Richardson airport around 430. I don't know how I'm going to get any sleep that night. I remember last year going to Edmonton, I was too excited to sleep that night and I was so cashed the next day. But hopefully I'll be ready early so I get enough shut eye before my flight. I don't know if this is going to be weird or exciting to hear but I just found out that I'll be competing against my 3rd cousin. Haha I pretty excited to see how see dances because I've only seen a few of her dance videos but never in person. So I'm pretty pumped for this competition, but it's going to only last for the weekend *womp womp* haha. But I'm happy I'll be travelling to another province, I guess just travelling in general.

The set is coming together quite nicely, can't wait to do it. The pieces are so creative, haha I just want to see it on youtube already. I kinda don't want to perform it, but watch it as a spectator. I guess we just have to wait and see til the competition. But overall, that has been what I've been doing these past couple weeks. Sleep > eat > work > dance > eat > sleep > eat > work > dance and so on. This is fun, and its only going to get better...

make it or break it... make it.

The past couple of days I've been way too tired. I barely get the amount of sleep that I usually had when I wasn't working. From being able to sleep till 1 or 2 in the afternoon and having to get use to waking up around 6 or 7, is a huge difference. Also from sleeping at 3 or 4 in the morning, is not good for my body. My sleeping pattern is so messed, I gotta find ways to slip in a nap here and there haha.

So Kidbro practices had just started last week and WHOA. I see a lot of potential and I know these kids wanna go big. Pushing them to their limit and going hard so that you can see them grow is so satisfying. To see them grow as a group and as individuals makes me happy that they love dancing so much more. It's crazy to see the growth from performing beside the other guys, to just seeing them practicing by themselves. I'm too excited to see what's in store for them for the up coming year. I see big things for them.

Met up with the choreographers and OH BOY. You don't even know; it's coming together slowly but with the minds that we have. It scares me to see in my mind to know what we're going to pull off. This is going to be one heck of a year for both teams and I'm too excited to put it altogether. Looking it at a different perspective is awesome, because it's something new to try. Making it that more hype for us to get together and share our ideas. Can't wait to hit studio. Everyone watch out, we coming.

On a side note, away from dancing. I feel the cold temperatures coming in the morning and that means that fall is just around the corner; also meaning that summer is slowly coming to an end or its probably over. And I'm just denying myself that it isn't and I don't want to deal with the whack weather that fall has to offer. I want to travel to somewhere warm and sunny. I don't think that I enjoyed the summer to he fullest and I'm missing it now. But I can't turn back time now; I guess I just have to wait till next year -__-"

PS.

When reality hits, it hits. Big time. When something as big as what had happened does happen, it just makes you just change your whole perspective of life. How everything that you thought cannot happen, can make you think about the possibilities and chances that CAN happen. Time is never something that a person should take it for granted. You know that it's there and there's a lot of it but how do you know it'll be there tomorrow, or in an hour, minute, second. Never think of time you wasted, always think of the time that you can be using. Never leave something to the last minute, enjoy every minute. Live for tomorrow, today, now. Nothing is holding you back, if anything it's you. Be happy and make the most of what you got, because I bet there's nothing else that you don't have right now that can satisfy what you already have. With that said, appreciate all the little things because those are the things that you'll miss the most.

-meeerk

for whats to come.

Lately, I've been trying my best to not let it get to me. It's the process of understanding that keeps me grounded and hoping for the best. Feelings have been different but I have no clear view if it has changed for the better or for the worse. But I know there is nothing that I wouldn't do just to be happy and not ruin what I have. Hopefully this is going to make me a better person overall, with this experience I know I can take into the world and know that I can conquer whatever life has in store for me.

Being ripped from two worlds is nothing a person should face, but situations like those happen for a reason. You just gotta face with the facts and deal with it. I know it might sound harsh but what else can you do right? You can never leave it alone because it'll always come back sooner or later. Things in my head make me choose to believe that one path is better than the other but both will do me good in the future. That fork in the road has been getting closer and its time to decide what I'm going to do. Just seeing that fork in the road makes me want to hold back and stop, because I know that I haven't prepared myself enough for what's to come. I guess it's my fault. This is kinda funny to me; I know that i shouldn't be a downer and at the same time I just gotta move and do what I can to succeed. This is going to be another learning experience for me, I just have to take it, learn from it, and apply it. Nothing else is more satisfying than seeing yourself exceed those limitations and being that person that you are now. As a person that has grown with the potential that you see yourself in having.

On a side note, Sikat is going to be starting up soon and I know I can go on forever with that but I'll save that for another day. I'm just excited just to dance again, and get it rolling again after a long ass break, I know everyone else is eager to start, and that eagerness is going to help us push ourselves to improve oursselves. Dancing is awesome and I can't wait.

-meeerk

something new

hello i'm mark.

this is pretty new to me. but i think this is where i can just speak my mind without it being heard. haha if that makes any sense. but so many things have happened to me during the recent months. and i'll probably elaborate on it in a couple of days or so. i just wanted to see how this works. so if anyone is reading this i'll get back to this soon.

later dayz.

-meeerk